under a spell..

I look above the dark sky, twinkling stars & down the lonely streets and all too familiar lanes. Magic of the moonlight sweeps over me, bewitches me. My heart at peace, mind still full of the day’s events and body exhausted. I stand by the balcony…….. staring at something unseen…..trying to hear something unheard. There is a strange calmness everywhere as if the night is under a spell……..!! a cold shiver runs down my spine and I go back to my room.
Inside, there is darkness, illuminated by the light from the computer, a silence broken only by the ticking of the wall-clock. My bed seems ready to devour me but sleep is the last thing on my mind. The spell is not yet broken…...…
A tide of emotions come rushing out . I never knew of possessing such emotions. In this midnight hour, why this sudden gust of feelings? My heart is heavy, I know not why. I feel as if I’ve lost something and am looking for it. But what.......?
The strange fact is that amidst the past 22 years, today suddenly I am looking for my lost childhood. Those merriful days when laughter bubbled in young hearts and fantasy filled clouds would float, when sleep came ushered by mamma’s lullaby........
I wish to retrace my path & grasp those days..but they fly by, they elude me. As if I’ve come a long long way through the winding paths of life. Like a kaleidoscope the bitter-sweet memories of yesteryears come reflecting back to my mind...

Its been a long day today!! Have lots of work to do .. cant spare the time to fall back into the past.. I must go!!!

Its all about questions !!!!!!!

Life has a strange way of taking turns when u least expect it to.. where is the line which keeps us to ourselves ? y cant I see it? and still I know it is there I know, that's y it pulls me back 4m being wat I want to be.. is it really dat difficult to keep urself happy...? Ok leave aside happy.. Lets say satisfied ... and wats going to happen if I break the rules... I cross the line... will it really be that bad....? Lets not answer that question coz the answer mite give me the solution to my problems. Y then am I scared of the solution? Does dat mean I am doing it deliberately which wud mean dat I like the line.. its my life I hav to live it on my own.. then y shud my decisions depend on others.. these others wont be there for the life time... they will also leave me.. so? shud I take decisions depending on these others..

Lets talk about love.. wats it precisely....? I cannot say.....my vocabulary isn't strong enuf to suffice its meaning....but I must say its amazing..... Even if it comes to you 4 a short while grab it, I wud say!! Its worth it... u will feel gud from within that u r the lucky 1 to have experienced it atleast... the concept of perfect love love to me is very complex... it really varies from 1 individual to the other, but i wud definitely take this an opportunity to quot a few lines about perfect love:.........
perfect love is not receiving, its giving;
perfect love is not red roses on valentine's day, its the rest of the 364 days of knowing u love someone;
perfect love is not phone calls n stolen kisses, its the silent smiles in memory of your sweetheart;
perfect love is not a grand wedding , but spending a lifetime together;
perfect love is not fight-kiss-makeup,its loving the one who annoys the hell out of you!!!!!!!!!

...and believe it or not I, for one, believes in each of the words written above.