Change of seasons

I looked up from the laptop at the window ... expecting to see what was obvious.. cars moving by.. the green the trees.. or maybe even red and yellow... but all that met my eyes were some shades of black and grey... IF green was left.. I could not decipher it... A bleak morning... even the sky had lost its color.. I looked down at the laptop.. a the weather channel installed on the desktop...which would give me the hourly temperature updates.. and it surely was not very encouraging...

It was warm inside (thanks to the heater).. and dark... but I could almost feel the damp chill outside.. as if it touched me somewhere... It might rain tonight... Winter has already found its way in. All you try is to hold onto the last few sunshine... but even that fades away. I await the snow now...

In the past 3 months I have often looked up at the window and seen the world outside.. changing its numerous faces... the sunny mornings to heavy shower and now to cold darkness. From green leaves.. to a multitude of colors to bare branches.
It had never been so vivid outside. Back in my country the window would either reveal a part of my office building.. or the numerous apartments nearby.. or a rare opulent view of the green against the blue sky...

In my childhood I have always painted trees green... shades of green maybe. Never have I thought of coloring them red or yellow.. that might have made my art teacher laugh. But here every color fits a tree depending on which season of the year you are in.
Never has the weather outside decided how the day would turn out to be... well thats how my husband puts it... haah for the first time my blog bears the name and reference to a 'husband" !
Well I am married now... almost been past 5 months. Seems like it was yesterday... that I met him.. started talking to him.. liked him.. started feeling that wierd fluttering mushy thing for him.. wondered what it would be to spend a life with him.. started bothering about what if nots... and within no time all my doubts and fears were swept aside and we were together. Everything took time to seep in.. but it felt so good... just like when you wake up from a warm coziness to find a beautiful weather outside...

All this time so many things happening in and around me.. and my mind was never resting... the thoughts and feelings always crowding .. but they never flowed from my mind to my fingers... they never got transformed into words... I was too happy and busy.. or happily busy...
There were times when I desperately wished I could pen down my thoughts but either the stationeries were not around or I was too lazy!

Today is just another of those days... just another morning... but somehow .. somehow I managed. I was saturated with whatever keeps me busy and just wanted to have the luxury of writing something.. anything.. just to get started again. Earlier whenever I was low or felt lonely I would take refuge in this blog of mine.. but that doesnot seem to be the case nowadays... thanks to my new life! But I wanted to continue with my writing... pouring out my heart... every thing that I felt.. every flicker of emotion. and so here I am.. back with a BANG!
Not sure what and what not to write... should it be the new life unfolding infront of me.. or the different surroundings that I am into.. or of the wonderful nature that never ceases to bewilder me or some memoirs from the past.
While I decide what next to put in... I call it a day today, Till the next time... Keep warm!